Chris & Maddie's Adventure: The End of the Wait

Dear My Fertility Plan Readers and Friends~

I just don't understand why this is happening. Is it not enough that I spent my childhood watching the majority of my family die right in front of my eyes? And when I survived and learned to move on, I marry the man of my dreams and spend our entire marriage struggling to start our life only for his childhood cancer to resurface and watch him die as well. I am beginning to wonder if I am just not worthy of having children of my own.
 
Maybe I am just one of those people who have to suffer during their life to be an example to others, but I still don't want to give up. I would not have be born with an insatiable desire to become a mother if it was not to happen. My husband is absolutely devasted. I have considered possibly trying IUI, but again I have to come up with the funding. I just don't know what to do. I know that most people would say take time to grieve, but I don't want to do that, as we took time to grieve the first time thus the reason we waited so long to try again. The part that just really kills me, is that the doc said that there was no medical reason I couldn't get pregnant. So what went wrong, was it the donor? I just don't know. Just like my husband doesn't want to give up his fight, I don't want to give up mine either. I know most people would say that I need to take some time, but time is of the essence, and I feel like I have taken too much time.
 
I would like to thank you, Evelina, Anne @ Village Pharmacy, Dr. Li Liu, and Art of Touch Massage for all of their support and warm wishes. I am so blessed to have all of you be a part of this, although the outcome was unsuccessful.
 
I would like to try an IUI asap, to see if I might have better success, but I will have to wait until I can come up with the funds to do so.
 
Thank you again for everything that you did to help us. For all of the time and sweat that you put in to making this dream a reality. I think the biggest thing that I am most upset with is that I have disappointed everyone who backed us for so long. I only hope that I will be able to get pregnant in the very near future so that all of this hard work will not be in vain.

Very sincerely yours,

Maddie

From Angie and Evelina--

We would like to extend a huge thank you to all our readers and friends as well for supporting Maddie and Chris in their journey over the past several weeks.  We are honored to have been able to participate in this outstanding "team effort" in assisting Maddie and Chris.  Maddie and Chris--please know that our thoughts and prayers will forever be with you.  Your strength and dermination simply amaze us.  You will always be a part of the My Fertility Plan family, and please don't ever hesistate to let us know if we can be of any further help to you.  Y

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